Remembering Shani Baraka

By Marvin X

   When will the murdering end in the land of murder

when will it end?

when will the talk and marching make sense to fools even?

Poets are not safe in this land

even their children are not safe

from the death angel who walks through fire untouched

until the white house turns black

murder will reign in the world

no families are secure

Baldwin said, "The murder of my child will not make your child safe!"

Connect the dots, America

arms merchant of the world

whose guns pollute the hood

shrines to death and eternity stand on every corner

candles, teddy bears and tears

notes of pain and love, RIP

and the shrines return to the same corners every full moon

when death does her dance in the moonlight of our madness

is it too much to ask for sanity in this blood soaked land

is it too much to ask for a moment of clarity and peace?

Woe to America, she has become the habitation of devils

the haven for every filthy, unclean bird.

Fly to Allah. seek refuge from the blood of the beast

who devours the souls of men, women and children

from Palestine to Newark, from Liberia to Congo

from Soweto to Hunters Point in Frisco

Fly to the mountains of peace, take refuge in the trees

feed the cows and horses

see how they run to you, happy to see you with the hay?

plant the corn with your fingers

don't worry if dirt is in your pretty nails.

Don't worry if the sun burns you black like the earth

Fly to Allah and be safe in the caves of your mind

away from the evil one who walks through fire.

who seeks to devour the children we do not protect

so the big bad wolf blows the house down

we stand wondering how and why and who.

 

I told Shani to take me to the ocean and she said OK

but we never went

she was busy and so was I

I told her to come to Cali

she said OK but never did

She told her Mama, "Marvin X is the only man I like!"

And I liked her

bow legs. point guard. room full of trophies

I didn't think about challenging her in a game of one on one.

I wasn't going to embarrass myself since I wasn't in shape

I fixed her breakfast

She said she never saw a man cook before.

No, not her father nor her brothers

Maybe that's why she liked me.

I was drunk one night and invaded Amiri's study

I told him I wanted to marry Shani

He told me the next day,

"Marvin, you get drunk and say the damnest things!"

Her mother said, "Take her!"

but I never did. so Shani lived her life with her girls.

Her brothers said, "Shani just mannish! She be all ite."

Last time I heard, she had joined church and coached basketball.

The little point guard with the bow legs. The feminine spirit of Baraka.

We love you, Shani. You and your girl, Rayshon. Peace.

 

Marvin X