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Firewood
girl by
Adetokunbo Abiola
In
July when I turned 10, Omoregie asked me to accompany
him to steal and sell firewood as a solution to my
desperate hunger. The previous month, he told me a
story of a company near our house
called Uwelolalo sawmill. Its workers processed
wood from forests at Ogbese, Ondo, and Idanre, and the
premises had a chain of headless trees jamming it as far as
Omoregie and other children could see. The wood was sawed by
men and then taken by lorries called agbegi to
cities such as Lagos and Akure, where they were turned to
furniture for other cities. After the wood had been
taken away, many poor and starving children swarmed the
sawmill, gathering the remnant firewood.
Omoregie
told me stories of children going to the nearby Ogbese
market, selling the firewood, and having money in their
pockets a few hours later. Some of the children once sold
sachets of ‘pure water’, mango, and guava in search of
money to feed and faced a lot of trouble in the process.
One girl had been called by a man who pretended he
wanted to buy ‘pure water’, lured into a room,
and then raped, the man not buying anything. Another child
had joined a gang to steal mangoes, only for the
market women to say the mangoes were rotten and
called the boy a thief to avoid paying him. Omoregie
told me a story of a girl driven from home by her
mother. She would not allow the girl to eat because
she did not make enough guava sales from the hustlers
near the market. After the girl made money from selling
firewood, her mother begged and pacified her by buying her a
coat of many colors.
Omoregie
said I wouldn’t have problems stealing and selling
firewood. There was always firewood to steal at the sawmill,
and market women, especially one of them called Mama Bisi,
paid good money for it. He said he had stolen so much
firewood he lost count how many times he did it. Could I not
see he always licked sweets and ate biscuits while I starved?
He
stole - like many of us did - because he was
hungry. We were hungry because our fathers and mothers were
out of job and made us eat only once a day. So we
wouldn’t die of hunger, we stole mango and guava from
the trees in other people’s houses on our street. But
Uwelolalo presented a new challenge to me. It would be my first
stealing expedition outside my street.
It
was Kokumo, my elder brother, who initially stopped me
from joining Omoregie in his escapade. Whenever Kokumo
saw me talking to Omoregie, he would call me into our
one-bedroom apartment and invoke the name of Bolanle, The
Dare Devil Girl.
In the second week of
June, Kokumo, who was five years older than
I, saw me speaking to Omoregie and his eyes
darkened. He wagged a finger at me and told me to come into
the room.
“Have
I not told you to stop talking to Omoregie?” he asked when we
got inside. “You had better watch yourself or you’ll end up
like Bolanle.”
When
I asked him whom Bolanle was, he said she was a woman
who didn’t listen to her elder brother when she was a girl.
She scattered things and fought with everyone in her street.
When her elder brother told her not to steal, she did exactly
that. She stole money from her mother’s purse, stole fish and
meat from the soup pot, and beat up young girls so she
could steal their sweets and biscuits. Bolanle did it for
a long time, graduating into breaking into other people’s
houses and armed robbery. She was caught by the police,
tied to a pole in Lagos, and shot. Kokumo said Bolanle
started by playing with boys like Omoregie. After
he spoke, I sat down on the only bed in the room and
touched my aching stomach.
I beat it with my fist and
then squeezed it, grimacing with pain. The aches eased and
then started again, and I beat my stomach one more time.
I squeezed and pinched it until the door creaked
and Father, who worked as a freelance bricklayer,
entered.
In
mid July Kokumo caught me talking to Omoregie again.
Omoregie had just returned from Uwelolalo; and driven by
uncontrollable hunger, I begged him for sweets and biscuit.
When Kokumo saw me, he frowned, grabbed me by the shoulder,
and shoved me into the room. It smelled of dirt, guava, and
stale soup.
“Jemila,
have you forgotten what I told you about Omoregie?” he asked.
“If I see you talking to him again, I’ll tell Mother. She'll
take you to the police station and say you want to be
another Bolanle. They’ll lock you up in a cell
and witches will suck your blood.”
I
did not want to be like Bolanle, tied to the stake then shot kpam
kpam kpam by policemen. I decided not to think of
following Omoregie to Uwelolalo. If I did, I would end
up like Bolanle and cause a lot of trouble to Mother and
Father. When
Omoregie told me about the sawmill a week later, I said only
bad children went there. He said, “I don’t mind being a bad
child. At least I’ll eat a lot of biscuits and sweets. It’s
better than hunger everyday.”
“My
mother said if I follow you she’ll take me to the police
station,” I told him. “She said the police will lock me up
like Bolanle.”
“It’s
a lie,” Omoregie said. “The police will not lock you up for
not doing anything. We are only taking what other people
don’t want.”
“God
forbid I go to Uwelolalo with you,” I said.
“Don’t
ask me for sweets and biscuit again,” Omoregie retorted. “If
you ask me I won’t give you.”
“Sorry,”
I begged.
“Don’t
beg me,” he said. “You’re the only one who is different in
this house.”
When
I thought about what he said, I discovered he was right. Our
house was situated in the midst of shacks, hovels, and dingy
streets in Ogbese. Many children lived in it, and they all
did dirty work. Omoregie and Babatunde stole firewood from
Uwelolalo sawmill. Gbenga stole guava along the street
when he was not stealing meat from his mother’s pot of stew.
Shina sold ‘pure water’ on the streets and stole banana
off the trays of boys younger than he. Shina's elder brother,
Ayorinde, worked as a load carrier at the market and
sometimes stole and smoked cigarettes. Kokumo worked with
Father, stealing loose change from his pockets. As for me, I
dropped out of primary school because Father could not
pay my school fees. When
I refused to follow Omoregie, he stopped playing with me.
When I asked him for sweets, he would say: “Don’t ask me for
sweets and biscuits again.” He used to help me fetch water
from the well before. But when I got to the well now, he
would hiss and walk away. When he wanted to steal mango
from the neighboring compounds, he called the others but
ignored me. He
stopped the others from playing with me as well. He was 12,
older and bigger than us. Besides, he had beaten all of us,
except Nosa, who lived in the bungalow opposite our house
across the street. There would be trouble if the others
disobeyed him.
I
never knew Omoregie spoke to others until one day in late
July when I saw Babatunde coming from Uwelolalo and asked him
to play cards with me. Pulling up his over-sized shorts, he
said: “Omoregie said I should not play with you again. He
said you’re a coward.” The next day, after I stole meat from
Mother’s soup pot, I offered to share it with Shina, but he
ran away from me and said: “Omoregie said you’re a coward.”
He then pursued his lips derisively and walked away.
Even
Gbenga ignored me. It surprised me because we played hide and
seek together in the night. When I stood in front of our
room, he would beat me on the shoulder and yell: “I’m the
last to touch you.” I would run after him so I could be the
last to touch him. But when we got to the mango tree behind
the kitchen block in the backyard, he would stop and wait for
me. As I touched him, he would grab me and fondle my
breasts. When we heard someone come up to the backyard, we
would yell and start to run about as though nothing happened.
But that was before Omoregie spoke to him. When he saw me
now, he would hiss and walk away.
And
Ayorinde became hostile toward me. I used to punch
him at the back on the corridor when he went to sell
guava, and he would smile. But after Omoregie spoke to him,
he shouted at me when I touched him. One day, he put his tray
containing guava to the floor and pursued me. When he caught
me, he slapped me and I said, “I’ll tell my mummy."
“Coward,” he said. “I’ll tell her you are the first to beat
me.”
Unable
to bear my isolation, I decided to go to Uwelolalo, but I
didn’t know how to approach Omoregie about it. After thinking
for two days, I knew what to do.
Omoregie usually
wore a yellow T-shirt that said “Arizona Boy” and hung it on
the clothes line when he washed it. It was his only shirt and
no one dared touch it. One day, when I was sure he would see
me, I snatched the shirt off the line and sprinted to
the mango tree behind the kitchen. He pursued me, shouting.
Before he caught me, I stopped and threw the T-shirt at him,
saying, “Alright, I’ll go to Uwelolalo with you.”
He was
going to beat me, but when he heard what I said he did
nothing. He turned and walked away. But the children in our
house started playing with me in the afternoon.
Babatunde invited me to play cards, but I remembered he
refused to play with me for weeks, so I told him no.
Gbenga
tapped me on the shoulder and ran toward the mango tree at
the backyard, but I did not follow him. In the evening,
someone whistled under our window. I knew it was Omoregie
because he usually whistled when he wanted to call me to
fetch water. I went outside and he told me, “We go tomorrow”,
and I nodded. When I got back into the room Kokumo accosted
me.
“Was
that not that rascal, Omoregie?” he asked. “What did he tell
you? I hope he’s not up to some mischief.”
“No.”
I said. “He said water is in the well. He said we should go and
fetch water.”
“I
just hope you’re telling the truth,” Kokumo said. “If I find
out you’re lying, I’ll tell Mother. She’ll kill you with her
hands. She’ll then take you to the police so they can lock you
up like Bolanle.” He sat down on the ancient sofa in our room
and began to hum under his breath. Soon after, he started
telling me the stories Grandmother told him when he visited her
in January.
He told
me how the tortoise disobeyed its father, fell down from
heaven, and broke its shell; how the ear disobeyed its mother and
was punished by the mosquito; and how the tree disobeyed its
father and walked into the sharp teeth of the saw. He even told
me how Grandfather defeated forty other men before he could marry
Grandmother.
I didn't ask him to repeat any story as I
usually did because I was distracted by the thought of going
on the trip to Uwelolalo the next day.
In the
night, I had a strange dream. I was pursued by someone or
something. Sometimes it was a man holding a long firewood while
balls of fire flew out of his eyes. At other times, it was
burning firewood pursuing me through the streets of Ogbese. I ran
but tripped on a trunk of a big tree lying across the street. The
man with the burning firewood stood over me. As he struck me with
the wood, I screamed and woke up. Kokumo held me in his
hands, tapping me on the head to calm me down.
Despite
this, I was determined to go to Uwelolalo for the firewood
because of my agonizing hunger. In the morning, while we
fetched water at the well, Omoregie told me about the trip. He
said we would leave in the afternoon when women plaited their
hair and men played draught or drank ogogoro, local
gin. We would pass through one of the two tracks in the stretch
of bush at the end of our street and get to the sawmill eight
hundred meters away. We would steal as much firewood as we could,
pass by the side of the sawmill, and burst out on the highway
leading to the market, where Mama Bisi would buy everything from
us. Omoregie said we would take a different route back so we
don't run into ghosts in the first one.
“What
about the two headed dog in the bush?” I asked. “My mother said
it would bite us.”
“The dog
doesn’t move about in the afternoon.”
“What if
we meet a ghost from the cemetery in the bush?”
“Ghosts
always come out at night,” Omoregie said. “We will have finished
stealing the firewood before they come out.”
Omoregie,
Babatunde, and I left for Uwelolalo in the afternoon after a
heavy shower. We were excited about leaving home and going in
search of firewood. We did not pass the second track leading into
the bush because Omoregie said boys who had gone to pick snails
the day before had seen two-headed spirits there. We had no
problem leaving because Mother and her friends were busy plaiting
their hair and talking about their no-good husbands. Only one
man, Audu the drunk, saw us. He shouted: “Where are you going?”
But we swept past him, knowing no one in the street would take
him serious if he complained about us.
We ran
when we got to the track in the bush. We had to be quick so we
could gather the firewood and leave the sawmill before ghosts
started coming out of the nearby cemetery. We also had to run so
we could come back early and fetch water for our mothers for the
only meal of the day. Omoregie would also be able to go on
errands for his drunken father and Babatunde buy snuff for his
grandmother.
Uwelolalo
from afar looked like a dump of a thousand logs of wood scattered
on a dark soil. Omoregie talked mostly of firewood in connection
with the sawmill, but its logs were impressive. Some were long
and big with grey marking on their trunks, others were short and
had their boughs and roots cut off by machines. All were flung in
front and at the back of a long building built of zinc, cement,
and wood. I could not see the firewood from our distance. As we
ran toward the sawmill, I smelled damp earth, mud, and chemicals
in the air.
“Stop!”
Omoregie shouted, stopping on the track. Babatunde and I followed
suit.
A dog
stood on the track, blocking our way to the sawmill. It was high
at the shoulders, had a thick skull, big feet, and a brown face.
Its skin was stretched
tight over
its bones, and it looked lean and hungry. Though it was not the
two-headed dog Mother spoke about, I realized this wasn’t the
experience I prepared for – a run through the track and the
excitement while gathering stacks of firewood. I wondered
whether the bad luck Kokumo always said I had conjured the dog
from nowhere to stop our journey to the sawmill.
Omoregie
shouted at the dog and stamped his feet to the track. The dog
flapped its ears and growled. Babatunde joined Omoregie in shouting
and stamping his feet to the track. Emboldened, I shouted and
stamped my feet, but the dog growled, not leaving the road.
Omoregie picked a big stick, flung it at the dog, and howled. The
dog backed away. Babatunde picked another stick, shouting as he
threw it. The dog barked, turned, and started to run up the track,
its long tail tucked between his legs.
Yelling,
we ran after the dog on the muddy track. Barking as it ran, it
increased its speed, but we narrowed the gap between us.
Weakened by hunger, I panted and felt strength leave my body. I
wished we stopped running after the dog, but Omoregie wanted to
catch it and teach it a lesson so next time when we went to the
sawmill it would not block our way. A thick bush lay by the side of
the track leading to the cemetery. The dog turned into it and
disappeared. We came to a stop and started pelting the bush with
stones. The dog barked inside the bush.
“Let’s go
after it,” Omoregie suggested.
“Suppose
the dog is a spirit?” Babtunde asked, pulling his over-sized shorts
to his stomach. “Suppose it is a dead man who turned into a
dog?”
“Coward,”
Omoregie told him. “My father said dead men don’t turn into
animals. They turn to human beings.”
“I don’t
want to go into the bush,” I told them. “I don’t want to stone the
dog. I just want the firewood.”
Omoregie
stared at me, thoughtful. His T-shirt was torn, showing
the scaron his
bony chest. He got the scar from a wound when he fought with
Nosa over a small loaf of bread. The scar was black and ugly,
disfiguring his chest. After a few seconds, he shrugged and said,
“Let’s go.” He picked one last stone from the ground,
threw it at the bush, and moved up the track.
By the
time we got to the sawmill, we gasped and sweated in the sun.
The waterlogged sawmill was deserted as the workers had gone
home.
It was as though they packed their cutlasses, chisels,
machines, and other tools and left the premises, chased away
by the ghosts coming from the cemetery. But a thick wood smell hung
in the wet air, and we heard the roar of the cars and lorries as
they sped past on the highway fifty meters away. There was no
firewood.
As we
stood looking at the rows of log, I remembered what Kokumo
always told me when he found I had stolen yet another piece of meat
from the soup pot. He would say: “Jemila, Jemila, you’ll come to no
good.” I wondered whether this was why it turned out there was
no firewood. Perhaps there was something about me that brought bad
luck to me and people around me. I did not know what to do, but
Omoregie grabbed my hand and pointed at the large building in the
sawmill. I saw firewood stacked on each other beside the
building.
Omoregie raced toward it and we followed him.
We climbed over the logs on our way, stepped on marshy ground,
laughing and laughing, till we got to the firewood. We packed them
on our hands, but I made sure I picked the small and smooth ones so
their edges wouldn’t pierce my skin. As we took the
track leading to the highway on our way to the market, we sang as
we trudged through the muddy ground, boasting as we moved from
the sawmill.
“I’ll use
the money from the firewood to buy London sweets,” I told the boys.
“Shut up
there!” Omoregie said. “Where are you going to find London sweets
in this village? My father said those things you call London sweets
here are fake.” “I’ll buy
Nasco biscuit,” Babatunde said. “I’ll buy sweets. I’ll buy bean
cakes, akara, and everything in the market.”
“You’re a
fool,” Omoregie told him. “Do you think the money will be enough?”
“It’ll be
enough,” I said with confidence.
“I’ll buy
a cane so I can use it to beat people,” Omoregie said, and then
stopped, making Babtunde and I do the same thing.
Twenty
meters ahead of us, Nosa and one other boy stood on the track,
holding firewood and blocking our path. Nosa was 12 and a
fighter most of his life. He lived with his uncle because his
father and mother were dead. He terrorized most of the children on
our street, but Omoregie always fought him to a standstill. The
boys on our street said Nosa got his power from the ghosts in the
cemetery. They said one of his blows could make a house collapse.
They said he could kill small girls by pushing them with his hands.
He even fought Audu the drunk to a stalemate. I knew he would
want to take our firewood.
“Let’s go
back,” I told Omoregie.
“So that
we meet a ghost on the road?” asked Omoregie. “No way. We must
fight him.” “Do we
have to fight him?” Babatunde asked.
“Shut up
there, Coward,” Omoregie told him. “Let’s go on.” We walked up the
track and stopped ten meters from Nosa and his friend. As we stood
in the middle of the wet track, I was filled with fear. I did not
remember Omoregie could fight Nosa to a standstill and that we
were three while our enemies were only two. I did
not remember we would make money if we got to Ogbese market and
sold the firewood. I only thought we should go back.
I also
felt my bad luck was to blame for making Nosa and his friend
waylay us.
“Put all
your firewood on the ground,” Nosa said with authority. “We’re
going to take your firewood.”
“That’s a
lie,” Omoregie said, throwing his stack of firewood to a nearby
pond, staining some of it. He bent down and picked up one piece of
firewood.
“Bastard,”
Nosa swore and marched forward. He and Omoregie went at each other
like mad men. Babatunde and Nosa’s friend tackled each other.
Dropping my firewood to the mud, I started to cry, “Stop fighting!
Stop fighting!”, jiggling my feet as though I was bitten by an army
of ants.
I stared
at Omoregie and Nosa. Omoregie bounced on his feet, feinting with
the firewood. Nosa held his up, a grim look in his eyes.
“I’ll teach you a lesson today,” he told Omoregie. He swung his
firewood, but Omoregie caught his blow, and their firewood
clattered against the other. Nosa pulled back a step then lunged at
Omoregie, who fell to his knees. Omoregie swung his firewood, and it
hit Nosa’s crotch. Screaming,
Nosa dropped his firewood.
As he held his crotch and took a backward step, Omoregie whipped
his shoulder with his firewood, yelling. I ran toward him so as to
stop him from killing Nosa. As I grabbed his hand, he swore and pushed
me away with violence. I screamed, crashed into a nearby
tree, and lay crumpled on the ground, almost losing my remaining
strength. As I whimpered on the track, I saw Omoregie and Babatunde
chase Nosa and his friend down the track, Nosa hobbling as though
he had a crushed penis. Two minutes later, Omoregie and Nosa
returned, pulling me to my feet.
“My leg is
paining me,” I told them.
“Let’s
go,” Omoregie said, breathing quickly. "The ghosts and spirits
will start coming from the cemetery anytime from now. Do you want
them to catch us here?”
“Is that
true?” asked Babatunde.
“My father
told me they come out at 5 in the evening,” Omoregie said,
panting. “I’m sure it’s getting close to that now.”
As I
trudged after them on the track, I felt aches and pains over my
hands and legs and groaned. Omoregie said I should shut up and stop
behaving like his mother when she was pregnant. As I trailed behind
him and Babatunde, tired, I wished I had not followed them to steal
firewood. Omoregie said in a harsh voice I should be quick so we
could meet Mama Bisi in her stall at the market.
We did not
meet her twenty minutes later, but we met her daughter, Bisi.
Omoregie said we could deal with her as her mother allowed
her do business with him. She was 13 and very pretty. Kokumo
said she was prettier than all the girls in Ogbese put together.
When she looked at us, she had a haughty look in her eyes. It was
there when we got to her mother’s stall after crossing the
dangerous highway. She took one look at our firewood and frowned.
“Some of
them are stained,” she told us. “Mother said I should only pay five
naira per stick for this.”
“But it’s
not our fault,” Omoregie told her. “Pay us ten naira.”
“If I pay
you ten naira Mother will kill me,” Bisi said, staring at the
firewood with a pinched look on her face. Omoregie
stared at us as though he wanted to get our opinion. He turned to
Bisi after a moment and shrugged. “Alright, give us the money,” he
said.
As we
walked home a few minutes later, money in our pockets, I felt pain
all over my body. My shoulders, legs, arms, and chest ached,
and I felt as though I wouldn’t be able to get home. It appeared as
though someone pounded a pestle on my head.
I compared
my situation to when I didn’t follow Omoregie and
Babatunde to the sawmill. Though I had no money in my
pocket, I didn't feel the pains now surging through me. I
didn't feel guilty about stealing other people's firewood. No one
pushed me so I could crash against a tree and injure my legs. I didn’t
face the risk of seeing a ghost or spirit from the cemetery. No dog
barked at me. I felt suffering from going to the sawmill was too
much.
Vowing never to go there again, I staggered along
the road, gasping.
On getting
home, I broke down on the doorway to our apartment. Kokumo, who had
been looking for me, shouted. He did not ask me where I had gone or
what happened to me. He did not threaten me yet again with Bolanle
or other armed robbers shot in Lagos. Instead, he yelled: “I told
you to stay away from Omoregie! See what has happened to you! You
are about to die!” He pulled me up, dragged me into the room,
and put me on the bed, running from pillar to post.
Ayorinde, who was with Kokumo, told him, “Don’t worry. I’ll
get some aspirin.”
I wanted
to tell him I didn’t want his aspirin. Omoregie’s father told me
the aspirins sold in Ogbese were either expired or fake. Many were
merely chalk Igbo traders manufactured in their backyards and
called drugs. People rumored the drugs worsened illnesses rather
than cured them. Even though many children died after taking them,
people bought the drugs because they had no money to buy genuine
ones. But I was so weak I didn’t have the strength to tell Ayorinde
all this.
Kokumo had
the strength to tell him. “My sister will not swallow your
aspirin,” he shouted at Ayorinde. “My mother taught me how to boil
herbs,” and he ran out the room. He came back an hour later,
giving me a cup of boiled herbs, saying I should drink it, that I
would get well. I drank the herbs and fell asleep.
After I
became well, I avoided Omoregie and Babatunde. I didn’t want them
to ask me to follow them to the sawmill. When I saw them at the
well, I turned away. Whenever I went on errand for Mother or
Father, I ran past Omoregie before he could speak to me. I placed
my hands against my ears when Babatunde came to talk to me,
blocking out what he said.
But by the
end of the week, I was hungry again, having not eaten in two days.
Desperate, I went to the mango tree at the end of the street. There
were no fruits on it. Omoregie strolled along the road. As I
wondered where I would get my next meal, Omoregie branched off the
street and stood in front of me. He told me we should go to the
Uwelolalo sawmill. It had a new supply of logs. The women at Ogbese
market rushed at the firewood made from them. Mama Bisi said she
would pay fifteen naira per stick if Omoregie could supply
her. I would have plenty of money for sweets and biscuits if I
followed him.
I realized
I had to go if I didn’t want to starve. The sawmill was my only
hope for food. Mother and Father were broke and had no money to buy
a meal for the day. If I tried to be a good girl and avoid becoming
like Bolanle, I would die of hunger. Staring at Omoregie’s torn
T-shirt, I told him I would go.
In the
afternoon, he and Babatunde, still wearing his over-sized shorts,
called me and we left our house. We ran into the bush at the
end of our street, shouting as though we had no care in the
world.
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